Here I sit in a lovely coffee shop with two incredible people. These people are so full of the lord it makes me just want to sing. This weekend has been a real treat for me, being able to come to Hamilton and see a bunch of people who I spent the summer with. I'm do blessed by my time here. This past week has been really hard for me. God is disciplining me in new ways, teaching me a lot. The brokenness that floods my school is sometimes unbearable but I know He has a plan. I sometimes find myself deadlocked on what to do, and how to do it every time I listen he stands there holding my hand. He has taught me a lot about praying from his heart, when I do I find it becomes so real in my heart. So when I arrive in Hamilton last night I walked into this little church when they were doing worship, I sat at the back. As the music was playing I closed my eyes and that same vision that ive been having since late August of me running, appeared again. I never understood as to why I was running or what I was running for or from, I don't really know now but I know that I've running for something and not from it. Also that same vision of the treetops, I feel like it is going to become something that is so physical and so real for me. I sat in His beautiful presence with no distractions [psalm 132:1-8] was placed on my heart. An I David in this passage?. This time with me and Abba was so beautiful by the end of it I just wanted to jump up and dance, about 10 minutes before it ended I felt psalm 113 being embedded in my heart, although I didn't have my bible with me so I could look it up. I read it the second I picked up my bible, I thought to myself wow, how relevant! I'm so thankful and was so blessed by our father. Later that night we went to a giant art crawl it was so amazing to see all the different forms of art, different ways of expression at its finest. Ahh it was beautiful.
It was so lovely to be surrounded by people that are overflowing with the love from our Father. This morning when I woke up I went to this coffee shop where I find myself drinking this lovely decorated hot coco thinking to myself " this is too beautiful to drink" ... So I took a picture then drank it..
I sit back watching these women study reflecting on how lucky I have been to have such amazing caring people in my life, the thought that crossed my mind multiple times is " this is going to be me soon". I look forward to it more everyday.
Before heading home we went and visited my grandma, she's so beautiful and fragile. I love seeing her because she is always so joyful, she has that childish sense to her with her sarcasm [i love it]. I love going to see her, although it gets harder every time because she doesn't know who I am, I can tell her and explain it, only to wait 3 minutes and she doesn't remember [its hard], although this used to so much harder for me than it is now, it's neat to see how even though she doesn't know who I am she still is so open to listening and loving me. We dressed her up in her old fur coat and hat that she made, while I took a picture she smiled then stuck out her tongue. Turning around like she was the queen, her model shots are 100% high fashion material. It was lovely to see her which such a huge smile. I pray that as she literally decreases God increases in her. That He would speak through her in times when she can't remember words, I pray that she would be so free and joyful for her time left. I pray that she would feel an abundance of love poured over her.
As my mum and I head home we see the lovely sky changing colour before our eyes, as we drive over the hill infront of us it the fire colored sky with tall trees in the background and on one side there is a bunch of clouds [cottincandy like] that resemble mountains and I'm running towards them.
[conversations with God]
I hear Him saying " draw near to me". All I reply is "Abba guide me", direct me". He replies "ambs, be free. And know I am here, seek and you will find". "father i'm yours".
Father forgive the lies I'be lived
I broke your heart, you loved on mine.
This night I rest in His presence surrendering all I am and have to Him.
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