Meh.

"Meh" is defined as an interjection, often an expression of apathy, indifference, or boredom. However, it can also be used to indicate agreement or disagreement and in rare cases an ambiguous unit of measure. It can also be an adjective, meaning mediocre or boring.

Personally I find myself using this word way too often. I use it as a way of expressing a day that is not great but also not terrible one that had nothing too exciting or memorable. I also find myself using it when I either don't know how to describe how i'm feeling or when I just don't want to go into details. I realize I am at a total wrong in using it under any of those contexts. I notice that when I use this word I often am comparing how I am feeling currently to a feeling, emotion, day that I have felt better or worse. I am constantly comparing these things to times when i've been great or I've been not so great. Truth is, I am SO WRONG!!!

Francis Chan in his segments on Crazy Love, he talks about this girl who leads worship at a college he visits every so often. Every time he visited he noticed that this girl became more passionate every week, that she was very fresh and that it remained new to her every week. He finally asked her "how do you do that", she replied " whenever I have a really great time with God, I never say 'God give me what I experienced last week', instead I ask 'God you are a creator, would you create something new in my experience with you'. This was a huge wake up call for me, I stopped and thought for a bit. I realized how much I take for granted everyday, how I compare so much based of what happened previously. I began to think of ways I could change this, one of my conclusions was creating, allowing the creation of that day to bring greatness, expecting something new and not allowing me to compare it to something old. "We are never the same person we are today knowing what we learnt yesterday".

This leads me into my next thought on "MEH." I mentioned that I use that word when I don' t know how I am feeling, again I am incorrect. I think that this is a result from when -how I am feeling, -what I want to feel like and, -what I tell people I am feeling, fight. When they go through a continual battle, one trying to conquer the other, leaving me feeling slightly defeated. The only way I can express that feeling is through meh.

link to the Francis Chan Chapter 1 episode. - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2MlGmO_6EoE