Beautiful Things.

During the summer God was really stretching me in discernment, I began being able to hear, see and understand what God was telling me. I remember this one case when I was so scared to say what God was telling me to. As I went to walk over to this friend some other campers approached me with some problems, once I dealt with that I tried to go over again. I didn't get to her that day, it was almost like the enemy was not letting me tell her. Finally I was beside her, before I began to speak I felt this huge heaviness, I ignored it as much as possible. We were at a point when her and I began praying; she still seemed to be upset and broken. I asked God to show up, for Him to give me the words and He did. I remembered the song Beautiful Things, God was asking me to be blunt. I just remembered being so scared because I didn't know how she would take it.

This is what I said...

"God can't make beautiful things out of your life until you choose to be dust, until you chose to break down your own walls" 

God spoke directly through me that night, He showed up. He gave me words to speak when I had none. He met me in a very vulnerable place, but more importantly my friend.

It so amazing to see that when we are so decreased God is so clearly increased, I took courage in that. It brought me to this idea that when we have nothing to say God probably has so much to say.  On another note I think we often confuse or are unsure if what God is saying is Him or just us, especially when we still have so much to say. I have often felt this, but when I lift that up to Him, He always shows up in one way or another. I can also say that when I have had nothing left, or nothing to say He also shows up. He speaks, and without thinking I say. So why is it that we hesitate when we have words? And why is it so easier when we have no none?